I signed up for a volunteer with AIESEC in Turkey, and so found myself cooped up with the same people for a little over 3 weeks now. This is hell.
The thing about being in the road for so long is that you get used to short relationships, and you find that you don’t know how to maintain one for longer anymore.
You’ve travelled more, your friends think you’re cool, your ego’s bound to get higher. People also say that with traveling, you love yourself more, and you put yourself first. With that you take less bullshit, and you tolerate less.
So how does that help you make new friends?
Trust me, it doesn’t. I just had a argument with one of my project mate about how women should be treated. I am not only uninterested in continuing to talk with someone with a closed mindset, I also think I’m worth more than to give up on something I don’t believe in.
I wasn’t rude, I wasn’t crude.
I just have no interest in talking to this person anymore. So I walk away and forget. It’s so easy! Especially with the hundreds if people I’ve met in the last few weeks. The heys and the goodbyes are a norm now.
But is this really beneficial?
I have to work with people I don’t agree with one day. I have to learn how to accept differences. I have to accept the fact that just because I travel, it doesn’t make me a greater person, a wiser person, or someone with a more open mind.
I am just better than the person I was before, but still, not better than others. Thinking about this and figuring this out was hard. I think I’ve hit a rock bottom.
But this will get better, and I can only learn from the mistakes I did. I am a work in progress, and I’m not afraid to admit that.